Ambiguity…that’s where my life is headed right now…Ten years ago my mind had a 20/20 vision of the things that I want to have and where I want to be but the sad part is…you can’t have it all. You cannot have what you really wanted (<--past tense) even if you tried your best to get it back and you can’t be where you’d like to be (<--future tense) even if you put forth your best shot to be there. Yes, I agree…life happens and there’s no doubt how hard it may turn out to be. Well...for me atleast.
Just a thought awhile ago…Maybe, I’m barking up on a wrong tree or maybe not? See! That’s what happens during this brooding activity...That’s what I’m telling you about. I’ve lots of hesitations right now. I’m not even sure if I want to post this thing or not. (^_^) I’m not even sure if I’m making sense at all. All I wanted to say is that…life is full of uncertainties. I’m struggling to accept the concept of not knowing what will come next and what life has to offer after it has run through me over and over again.
Well, then I guess I have to try harder. One thing I can say and true enough, no matter how pessimistic other people are…I still willfully choose this life as my way of living no matter how tough this is and I perceive it as an impeccably fine choice. I’m an optimist! So, here I am back to the drawing board…
1st thing that I would do is to step outside with comfortable boundary and worth…maybe this time I’ll get it right!
“For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me dream.” -Vincent Van Gough-
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